So....Albert is gone, he went back to LA, I convinced him it was the best thing to do for himself, I originally did it because it was the only way to get him to leave, then I realized I didn't want him to go but he realized how much he didn't wanna be with me, regardless of how much he loved me, he'd rather go back to a place he hates than stay here and try to figure things out, it's fine...I guess I'm not the easiest person to deal with, true there was a huge age gap but we seemed to be good for awhile, he was the only guy that wanted to be with me since Joe, and that was pretty much like 5 years, in between. ....anyway, we're over, he's home, I'm alone...again, I'm hoping to move to a cheaper apt, I'll be taking Gizzy, so I'll have both girls to handle, alone.I never thought I'd have a chance with anyone, then Albert came into my life and fixed that but now he's gone and I didn't think I'd be alone again, but I am.I don't have any desire to be with anyone again....for now, maybe ever, who knows,for now though, I just wanna focus on me and the girls and try to accept myself and be truly happy....hopefully I can.
