OK

So,i broke up with Joe,it happened officially on Monday,we talked about it today just to be sure we were on the same page,and we are.....he said it hurt a little but he's ok. He still wants to move to Seattle,i'd really like to live alone,but financially he can't live by himself right now,realistically it isn't my problem,but the compassionate part of me can't let him just suffer like that,so we'll move together and eventually i'll move on my own,but at least i'll know someone aside from Alicia up there and though i don't love him anymore,i still want to be his friend.I guess we'll have joint custody of Gizzy (hehe)But when i do move on my own,i'll still get another dog,i doubt if we'll have to live together very long,we'll see what happens.

REGARDLESS

So,i've been trying to save money,so we can move to Seattle,WA area next year,unfortunately i haven't saved much lately cuz I pay the rent and also my bills,i just realized today that Joe has been skipping and/or not paying the 2 bills he has,yes i know he works very little but he needs to get another job soon,or i'll be the one skipping out,i'll just go to Seattle myself,i really don't need him,honestly.

HAPPY 2

Ok,so i had been feeling very shitty lately and i was placing alot of blame on Joe,and i couldn't find any way to make me feel better,i thought time away here and there might help,it didn't.Everyone kept telling me to talk to Joe about everything,cause up to this point i hadn't.Then while i was coming home from my last little get-away,i was really trying to figure out what i wanted.I have known for quite a few years i could make it on my own,the thing is i just didn't want to, regardless of whether he would be ok by himself,i just didn't want to leave.So when i got home we talked about things,i told him exactly how i felt,he told me he felt something was going on,and he was feeling similar,that we both hate it here,i really feel like it's killing our relationship.And since we talked i feel like the weight i've been carrying is gone.So we decided to save as much $ as we could and we're moving to WA,min. wage is a little higher and i can get my cosme.license with no problem and alot of the rents are cheaper than ours,hopefully in about 6-8 mos. we'll be outta here.

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I've never really known depression before,i have read all about the symptoms and realize i am depressed,but i can't deal very well with the feeling of loss,it really feels like i'm somewhere i can't find my way out of. I'm not entirely sure if it's just one thing or ten that has made this happen,alot has happened in the last few years,some good some bad,alot in-between,i've been trying to maybe figure out what is causing this. Whether it's my relationship or my job or the fact that i hate Fairfield or all of the above.....the one thing i do know is if i don't change things soon i'm going to explode and i don't know if i can come back from anything worse than what i'm going thru now.

UNSURE

So,it's been a long,long time since i posted on here...again.Anyway,i've been through alot the last couple of years.I got a job at Mastercuts at the mall it was ok for the first 6 mos. then we got a new manager and she's one of the best i ever had,i found my birth family after not knowing where they were for 40 years,2 brothers and a sister,she has 2 kids a son and a daughter,i'm still getting to know them,but i'm glad that i found them.Lately i've been feeling kinda out of it,like i'm lost and i don't know what's gonna happen in the future,and i really,REALLY miss my past,i know i can't relive it,but i miss my family....get-togethers,Xmas,Thanxgiving,it isn't the same anymore without them and i really miss my parents everyday,I'm a little scared about what to do next,i used to always be sure what i was gonna do next and so sure of myself and confident in my relationships,now i'm always unsure of things and whether or not if i really wanna just run away from it all and never look back.....