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I've never really known depression before,i have read all about the symptoms and realize i am depressed,but i can't deal very well with the feeling of loss,it really feels like i'm somewhere i can't find my way out of. I'm not entirely sure if it's just one thing or ten that has made this happen,alot has happened in the last few years,some good some bad,alot in-between,i've been trying to maybe figure out what is causing this. Whether it's my relationship or my job or the fact that i hate Fairfield or all of the above.....the one thing i do know is if i don't change things soon i'm going to explode and i don't know if i can come back from anything worse than what i'm going thru now.