UNSURE

So,it's been a long,long time since i posted on here...again.Anyway,i've been through alot the last couple of years.I got a job at Mastercuts at the mall it was ok for the first 6 mos. then we got a new manager and she's one of the best i ever had,i found my birth family after not knowing where they were for 40 years,2 brothers and a sister,she has 2 kids a son and a daughter,i'm still getting to know them,but i'm glad that i found them.Lately i've been feeling kinda out of it,like i'm lost and i don't know what's gonna happen in the future,and i really,REALLY miss my past,i know i can't relive it,but i miss my family....get-togethers,Xmas,Thanxgiving,it isn't the same anymore without them and i really miss my parents everyday,I'm a little scared about what to do next,i used to always be sure what i was gonna do next and so sure of myself and confident in my relationships,now i'm always unsure of things and whether or not if i really wanna just run away from it all and never look back.....