FUTURE

So....it's Xmas time,it's just me and Ace this year,i've never been alone during the holidays before,its weird....Joe is in NM,i have no other friends here,so hopefully it goes by quick so I can get closer to spring,im planning to move to CA,ive had enough of Seattle,its been almost 4 years that ive been here,it's time to go,i miss my friends and family that are there.....I don't hate it here,it's just not what I want anymore,hopefully things go well in moving,i want to have a happy future,im sick of being just "ok" I'm afraid of having another relationship but I would like to have a boyfriend that I can be with for the rest of my life,prolly a fantasy but it would be nice.